Love isn’t always possession. Love is giving more to someone than receiving from that person. Of course, when you love someone, you want them, you want to be with them, you want them to be your person. But more than that, when you love someone, it should be about them; how you can make them the happiest person on earth, how you can comfort them when they’re sad, how you can make up after fighting.
(Hopefully this means that I’m growing up and maturing.)
Today, we believe God wants you to know that you are what you think of all day long. Day after day your thoughts shape you like dripping water shapes rock. Pay attention to what you are habitually thinking about, – are your thoughts serving you well?
It’s starting to matter less nowadays. I haven’t been giving it as much thought lately. I’m starting to make you matter less. Distractions, I try to busy myself with them everyday. Be it something intellectually challenging, wasting my life away or when I’m fortunate, interacting with other friends and people, they’ve all helped in making me think about it and about you less nowadays.
But when see or hear anything about you, I’d still think about it a little, wish we could genuinely be alright with each other, wish that none of it changed.
One thing that came to mind today was how I’ll never mean as much to you, as you meant to me.
And perhaps I need this, perhaps I need to understand that it’s okay to lose you, it’s okay to let you and this go. Maybe I do need you to not matter to me anymore and to be okay with that. Cos maybe then, I am finally turning away from a door that has been closed and moving on to find a door that is open.