#363: 2018, Day 1

I believe everybody is alive to fight.

Arsene Wenger (2017)

I hope to be someone like this this year, to fight for the people and the causes that are worth fighting for.

I don’t feel like I’ve done it as much in 2017. So, in 2018, I hope to continue to be brave, and fight for those people and those causes.

#363: 2018, Day 1

#323: it’s all in your approach

If your goal is to learn, you can always succeed. Because everything is an opportunity to learn and grow—including the occasional disaster. (Sometimes, that’s when you learn the most.)

Ashley Merryman,

How to Bounce Back From Any Setback |

motto: words to live by, from the editors of TIME

Read the full article here: How to Bounce Back From Any Setback | motto: words to live by, from the editors of TIME

#323: it’s all in your approach

#191: To put your heart out there, not knowing what to expect

Tomorrow morning, you’re gonna wake up flooded with Whatsapp notifications and I really apologise for the, well, spam. But tonight, while you were asleep, I managed to say what I wanted to say to you. Well, most of it I guess.

I took to (500) Days of Summer cos the last time I watched it, it picked me up from the emotional wreck I was . This time, it gave me clarity of thought to turn what I felt into words, and convey those words to you.

Tonight, I bore my heart out to you. It’s something I don’t normally do, but in a way I am slightly glad I did. No matter how you feel or plan to react to what I wrote to you, at least I put my heart out there.

I put my heart out there, without knowing what to expect. I took a shot, which several nights before I was too worried and scared to take. So I’ll just see how you’ll react in the morning and, take it from there.

#191: To put your heart out there, not knowing what to expect

#189: They don’t tell you what to do when the talking stops.

It just occurred to me tonight that, we don’t often hear about advice on what to do, when you and the (non-family) person you talk to/text daily suddenly stop conversing. It goes on for a few hours, then an entire day, and then for two days.

What happens, when you have the urge to talk to them? Just about anything under the sun? Just so that the two of you are talking again like you used to, everyday. Even if all the while a lot of what you two have talked about are mundane or simply the littlest things in life, at least, the two of you spoke to each other, everyday. So what do you do, when you want so much to talk to them again?

But, you are concerned that you are annoying them. You are worried that maybe they need a break from talking to you for a while. That’s alright, it’s nothing to worry about actually. Friends with good relationships with one another can go on for periods of time without communicating, and yet when they finally get the chance to, they just click together and hit off perfectly fine.

Still, you can’t help but worry that your constant desire to want to talk to them makes you intrusive, clingy, boring, making them all the more less interested in wanting to converse with you. You want to give them space, but you’re afraid of losing them, in the sense that, you will never regain this unique relationship of being able to talk to each other everyday. Because now that it has stopped, only do you truly realize how great it was to be able to converse with someone everyday about anything and everything.

And you want it back. You want them back. You are scared of losing them because over this time of consistent conversation, you have subconsciously valued them more and more, till now, they have become someone of great value in your life. And you’re afraid, that perhaps, although you are someone valuable to them, they do not value you as much as you value them.

Of course, there are a host of other factors to consider. For my case, some of my actions may have caused things to be uncomfortable and awkward; I may have crossed a fragile line a couple of times… After a little reflecting, I do realize such possibilities. But, it may already be too late. I, may have lost the unique relationship I have with this wonderful person, that we can talk everyday, just about anything, from the last thing that person said. And, I may never get it back, and that’s something I’ll have to live with for, quite a while.

#189: They don’t tell you what to do when the talking stops.